EOYs have started, the first three paper not that bad, can pass. I think…
Next week killer, all the sciences and maths, I’m so going to die…into the abyss and depths of hell. 7 paper more to go, hang in there. Don’t die…
JIAYOU!! 7 more…
A new chapter of my life has unfolded, and I am dog-earing this page, not wanting to forget where it is, because with you by my side, the sky would always be bright. <3
COUNTDOWN: 15 DAYS TO EOYS!
STATUS: HAVEN’T STARTED EXCEPT FOR 5 TOPICS FOR MATH, OUT OF THE 11
CONCLUSION: I AM GOING TO FAIL…
Till EOYs are over, I’ll be back, I think. (:
I just realised, actually I realised a long time ago…I don’t make sense.
Today’s debates was horrible, H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E, horrible. I totally screwed up the whole thing… I wasn’t even making sense when I spoke, that aside, we went to do the CLE poster.
I stepped on some weird thing, which smelled real bad, so I went back to change shoes in Joel’s slippers. Oh, and we bought this glitter thing yesterday, and when I came back from boarding, my hair got bombarded with silver glitter, there was so much it looked as if I had white hair. So, the evil me, took my revenge. We were spamming glitter everywhere, childish us. But it was fun. Yongxin, Sudeep and I were having some war going on in the toilet, and we got ourselves wet and glittery. Yay.
Oh, and I found a new way to get home, but it’s longer, I think. Now I can take the same bus as Yongxin…
I really don’t make sense, hence I conclude I can’t write essays, and I can’t do science, and anything that has to do with logic reasoning.
Whee, I just got complimented on Deviantart! I’m so happy!!
The work is a year old and received more views than I expected, because I was a real amateur then, I knew nuts about art then…
This person said ‘I think I came across the second blackeri‘ She is some really amazing artist on Deviantart, and her artworks are totally awesome, love them! This person actually thinks I have the potential to be as good as blackeri! Yay, so happy! I’m so going to do digital art for coursework next year.
Was browsing through blogs just now, and read Yongxin’s comment on my comment on his blog. ‘haha cos you posted in our blog alr what (:’ Haha, it was meant to be a YOUR, with the ‘Y’. Such a blunder…
Wasted a fair bit of time just now, went to school to do RE, but in the end only Naishad and Ms Quah were doing it, while the rest of us just lazed around. Then we went to Bugis Art Friend to get materials, serious miscommunication happened before we went down, sorry guys. Shopped till like 6.40pm, and we spent like $50 plus on art materials, half were spent on Yongxin’s stuff. There were like so many stuff to buy, but all were so expensive, art is really a huge investment. Everyone else left, lest for Yongxin and myself, so went roaming round Bras Bersah as we waited for his Dad to come. His family is like so amazing, they are all talented in art, in their own ways. One with western painting, another chinese, another with architecture, and then another with all the other traditional art froms.
I haven’t started on any work this holiday, and I have debates tomorrow!! Die…
Finally, everything is over.
Saturday, guitar concert. Really great, first concert with RIGE. Before the concert, I was like going crazy, because I still haven’t perfected Palladio. So I was backstage, jumping around, going into a frenzy. The first few songs came and went, the audience was really great, but we had such a small audience. Palladio was like coming on, so I was all nervous, but in the end it went quite well, though I screwed up lots.
After the concert was over, I was like phew, all our hard work really paid off. But next year, we should advertise our concert more and get a better place, like Esplanade (: But, yeah it was a success, to me, that is. After the concert, I went with YONGXIN, NAISHAD, SUDEEP and Matthew to iluma! We were like roaming about, then we bought cheesecakes and drinks from Coffee Bean and went to the rooftop of iluma. Really fun! Thanks guys!
Sunday night, we went for mesmeRISE at Yong Siew Toh, cool place. Went there with Naishad, Vivek and Zhi Jie. Strings was good, but their repertoire needs to be more diverse. Too many classical pieces can really bore people. Ryan Kwan, I went there especially to support you ok, and you still owe me lots.
Monday was iHope concert, really fun! I spent the night before chionging the programme booklet with Chuan Ling, and soloing it in the morning because she had to go for netball prac. Rushed down to Nexus Audi after that, really ulu place. To summarise the day’s event, really fun. Oh and I had to conduct the ensemble for our item, because Ji Heng had to play as he was the only prime-bass there. So I had to take over the conductor’s baton, and conduct, which I did I pretty horrible job of. Anyway, it was really fun nonetheless. Oh and I did my signature ‘lift specs up with one finger’ move on stage, and everyone laughed. Bshh, got suanned by Chermain and Sylvia later. ):
Today, I had to go back to school for AEP, and I ended up restarting, because I DID IT WRONGLY! ): Anyway, I got to go back tomorrow and continue. Went to BPP in the afternoon, and met Chyi Yan and Le Ting (who’s still short as ever, sorry (: joking lah…) who were ‘going to meet their mothers’ *cough* Then I whiled my whole afternoon away talking to people. Sylvia’s description of the HC guys was hilarious, haha, those horny flirts.
Yay, everything’s over!
I’m still going crazy…
Let’s see Math CCT is over, was quite ok, but there’s a chance I might fail…again. Then Thursday’s parody night/afternoon is over, we got fourth, but we deserved it. With a lackluster group, which has no interest and energy at all, no coordination and responsibility, the fourth is worth it. Some people just care about themselves, selfish ignorant people. Yesterday’s IvP was awesome, it was really long since I last emceed, and for such a great big event, with so many important guests. Was really fun, and I enjoyed it, thanks Daniel.
There is guitar concert in 10 hour’s time or so, and I am so going to be dead. Like seriously dead. Die…
Haiz…
Let’s just hope we will RAGE with PASSION and with FIRE today.
Then I’ll die the next few days too…
Till then, bye.
I’m like so dead for this week. Everything clashes with each other, grahh.
Wednesday, there is math cct, which I haven’t studied for and won’t ever have time to. Thursday there would be PARODY FINALS, and rehearsal for IvP. Both which clash. Then Friday, is IvP from 9am to like 5.30pm, and I am going to emcee for something I’m not prepared for, and all those important guests there, I’m so going to make a fool out of myself. Then that clashes with rehearsal for our guitar concert, the one and only day for rehearsal. Die… Saturday is concert. I’m so bloody dead…
I’M GOING CRAZY!!!
Saturday was kind of fun, went to NYGH for Lit Seminar, the first few performance were quite interesting. Thinking of taking TS in JC already… Then there were these many seminars and lessons which we could attend, I went to the Fantasy and Science Fiction one, quite flat and dull, but it gave me time to finally sit down and think. I rarely have the time for leisure these days. Then there was this great commotion, and in the end, we did not perform for the seminar. Our main character is sick, like how to perform. So…we…did something else instead. (:
Just now, was like crazy. There was like this group of students, primary school kids, I guess they are all neighbours, different races somemore, multiracial society (: Anyway, my mum knew one of them, so she was like ‘what happened?’. Then they said something about Malaysia’s birthday, then there will be fireworks at 8pm. So, we all went up to the 30th floor, I stay on the 25th. So we waited there like crazy people. Then I decided to go down, ’cause there got clearer view. So we all went down. Still nothing. Then my neighbours came out, two families, joined us. So we continued waiting. Then our next door neighbour came out asked what happened, and then we explained. He’s a malaysian. So he was like, Malaysia always have their celebrations during midnight, so we were like…
But yay, I have friendly neighbours. (:
I’m frantically trying to arrange a rehearsal tomorrow. But apparently everyone is busy throughout this long weekend. I’m going mad…CRAZY!
I have no idea how to pull through this crazy week.
Crazy…really.
CRAZY!
Ok…I’m going crazy…
Whee, I am back home from boarding for this really long weekend. I realised boarding is quite fun actually. Shall summarise the week’s events…
Sunday was the day we checked in, I was like fumbling all over, not knowing what to pack and all. Packing took like ages to finish, and when I entered my room, it was like totally filthy. There were like dust and dirt everywhere, but after major cleaning and spicing up, it became really homely, I think.
So, the weekdays were mostly the same routine. Study time (Prep) at 7.45pm all the way till 9.45pm. Then roll-call, night assembly, attendance taking, and all the other misc stuff at around 10pm. Then after that, we are free to do anything!
Oh, let’s talk about the interesting facts and things which happened and I realised.
1. You get to wake up at 7am and not be late for school. Plus a nice shower and breakfast. I used to wake up at 5.30am and rush, and sometimes be late for school…
2. I destroyed my com! On monday, I was like rushing for prep, ’cause it was our first prep time, so I was like rushing all over. I cleverly placed my earphones in my laptop, between the screen and the keypad, squeezed it down, and placed it in my bag. When I took it out, the screen was cracked. Yay me…using my Mac now. Haiz…
3. WE GOT IN FOR LIT PARODY FINALS!!! Which is totally amazing, considering we hardly rehearsed. Tuesday was kinda fun, we had a rehearsal till like 9 plus, then we hanged out a bit, and went back to boarding. Then yesterday, after parody, everyone was like so relieved so we stayed up till like 2am playing and going crazily drama. Aliff and Shawn are like totally awesome, with them, you can just go drama.
4. Parody was fun! We were the first to present yesterday, and we weren’t exactly prepared. Considering that being our first full dress, with all the cast members present, which was cool. 30 minutes before the play, I went crazy and went into drama mode, everyone got freaked out, they have never seen the backstage side of me…Haha. Then, 3Q was there to support us! Yay, my class is so supportive! Then there were the litRA groups, Yangle is totally awesome as a fool, so himself. Brandon was horrendously amazing, but quite static as a domineering female. Bumsoo was his usual biatch self, correction…Korean Biatch. Bjorn was amazingly feminine, everyone thought he was a female, he totally looks like one with the wig on. Ernxu is, as usual, fantablous. Today…Aliff was as great as always, and the teletubbies were awesome. Ooh…and those are the four groups which got into finals!
5. Today was the teacher’s day celebration. After morning assembly, while the teachers were having catered breakfast, all the classes were busily preparing for the class parties. I was like, the board looks bare…I took a marker and doodled across the whole board, with caricatures of almost everyone, shall finish it next week. Our surprise was quite fail…as secondary students, we realised we can no longer play hide-and-seek. Our FTs spotted us, within seconds. Celebrations was quite ok, nothing interesting.
5 days break, and will move back to boarding next tuesday night. Till then, bye.
The following two weeks, and the last one was really maddening and killing me slowly.
There’s like tons of tests, projects and events coming up, and I’m far from being prepared for them. Let’s see there’s parody which is in four days’ time, and we are totally unrehearsed, lines unmemorised, sounds and lights not done. How screwed is that? VERY! Then there are projects and tests like Math PT, Eng Debates, Social Adv Reflections, RE, PHYSICS CCT, MATH CCT! DIE…
AND I’M MOVING IN TO BOARDING TOMORROW which I haven’t finished packing for SO GOING TO DIE!!!
Yesterday was kinda suay lah, went to Teachers’ Network for IvP, so we got off the station and came out into the world, it was raining so heavily, and Daniel forgot to bring his umbrella. So for the whole journey, two guys squeezed under a small umbrella which could hardly fit a person. So when we reached we were all drenched, and in the end, I would be emceeing for the actual event. Stressed.
Today was kinda fun and eventful, got screwed by security guards, did our lit props and costumes, went to ION with Naishad and Sudeep at the weirdest of time, when everyone is so freaking busy, we decided to spend the night out and de-stress, kinda fun.
Tomorrow moving in, I wonder how it would turn out to be, argh…I still have to do two scripts for IvP and RIGE. Die…maddening!
It’s been ten days into a new year, and so many things have had happened. I can’t say that I have matured ever since, but I have seen many different sides of people, and also I have seen the ugly side of me these few days.
Had been down these few days, coupled with stress, I really broke down, couldn’t stand it anymore. Yesterday I had the worst mood swing ever, and I’m really sorry to whoever was affected, especially those four who has stuck by me time and again. Though I know, there are people more important than me to them out there, and each of them has their own cliques, but they made me realise a lot of things.
In this ten days, I realised lots.
I guess I have to start things anew, and take things slower this time, I have to beware of my actions lest I harm anyone once more, I have to be aware of what I can achieve, and what are totally impossible, I have to learn to let go as that will make everyone happy, I have to be less selfish, and less attention seeking. I have so many things to change, but even so, would I even make a difference to anyone, would anyone care?
But I guess those that actually care, are those real friends I am seeking for, I really thank them, especially in times like these. Though I know, these few days, everyone had been having problems, feeling demoralised and all, but I guess this storm would be gone soon as we stick through this tough tide together.
Ten days are over.
What would the next ten be like? Would I change, would they change, would we all change? For the better?
